Rant September 12, 2007
Posted by Staci in : Emotions, General Ramblings, Running , 2commentsOk half my family is not speaking to me, my home internet connection is down again, when my internet is up KR where I talk with my running group is down, my run tonight was horrible, and I just feel very worthless, un-happy and hopeless right now. I know all that will pass, but for the moment it just seems like nothing is going my way. I don’t like it when I get in these moods, and I know I will be fine in a day or two, I just have to wait it out.
Protected: Arguement September 11, 2007
Posted by Staci in : Emotions, General Ramblings , Enter your password to view commentsA surprise August 1, 2007
Posted by Staci in : Emotions, General Ramblings, Work Stuff , add a commentSo there is a guy in the department I work in who did a really nice thing for me. He is a co-worker who started training with me for the fraud department back in April. He is a nice enough guy and I have done some favors for him such as carpooling when he could not drive due to injury. He comes to me every now and then with questions on accounts because he knows I have background with the system. Well tonight he wrote an page long letter to my boss telling him how wonderful I am to take time out of my day to help him out. He said tons of nice things about me. I was so touched. I felt a little guilty because sometimes I feel like maybe I am being short with him, but I guess he doesn’t seem to feel that I am. After some of my past issues at work and people making a few complaints that I was unfriendly, not helpful, and condescending this is such a change.
Hacked July 20, 2007
Posted by Staci in : Emotions, General Ramblings , add a commentSo on Wednesday night I get home from work and discover all my email accounts have been hacked in to. My yahoo, hotmail, gmail, and my justemail main account. All my other online services were compromised. My neopets account is empty, I had to change over my paypal account and a few others. I was so pissed last night you can not imagine. I am in the process of recovery now. I will never be able to get back in to my hotmail, gmail, or yahoo account at this point. So please if you have one of those email address to contact me, get rid of it. I will be emailing people with a brand new email account once I have one set up. In the mean time, if you need to reach me, you can post here.
07/07/07 July 7, 2007
Posted by Staci in : Emotions, General Ramblings , add a commentThis day won’t be seen again in our lifetime.
Sort of depressing.
But on a happy note I got a new tattoo. Since I got the one on my right wrist on 06/06/06 I had to get one today as well. I was planning on a small scarab on my ankle. Well that is not what I got. I have a beautiful scarab on the middle of my back. It flows really well with the ankh. Sort of like it is coming out form the top of it. The colors are wonderful. 7 colors to go along with the day. Even more symbolism.
Now the scarab means many things, and I originally decided on it as a symbol of good luck to go with the 7’s but it also means renewal of life. The Egyptians believed the the scarab represented the self-created God Khepri. So it was looked upon as a symbol of creation, renewal, and resurrection. My first tattoo was an effort for me to feel alive and in control of my out of control world. While I know I can not control everything, I can learn and grow from the past. I have renewed my confidence in myself, and re-created my life in such a way that I am happy and content. I have wonderful friends, great hobbies, and more confidence in myself then I have ever had. I don’t need anyone to make me happy or make my life full. I make myself happy. I socialize, I read, I run, and I my life is so full I that when I think about the past I see how empty parts of it really were. So this new art goes along with the old.
Life, Protection, Luck, and Renewal. 4 tattoos, 4 meanings.
Annoyed!!! May 4, 2007
Posted by Staci in : Emotions, General Ramblings, Site Updates , add a commentSo I get this expensive new laptop, and the darn thing hates this website. I can’t get it to load any of the pages that allow me to update the site. I am using my old one to post my exercise stuff. I am computer savy and I can’t figure out what the problem is. They are both running on the same wireless router, with the same internet connections, but this one connects to everything with out a problem, and that one is slower then dialup. I have turned off the firewall, removed norton which I hate and stopped the “automatic phishing” scan that it tried to do on every site I visited, and I still have huge problems getting to my own damn website. I can get it to view, but I can’t post or edit, or anything else from it. I am about ready to either take it to best buy and have them figure out why it is so damn slow, or just return the whole thing to the store and stick with this one. This one has its problems, it needs to have so much stuff deleted and some major updates, but at least I can access my website with it. I am about at the end of my rope with at 2k new toy that is really pissing me off!!!!!
New Laptop April 26, 2007
Posted by Staci in : Emotions, General Ramblings , add a commentWell my new laptop arrived yesterday. I played with it this morning before work. I really like it. It is going to take awhile to switch everything over from the old to the new. It was a bit tramatic when I started to move stuff. That old laptop has a lot of sentamential attachment for a box of electronic parts.
Happy Halloween October 31, 2006
Posted by Staci in : Emotions, General Ramblings , add a commentWell I just want to say happy Halloween to everyone who might happen to read this.  I have way too many friends to send messages to one-by-one. Or even to name here. I hope you all had a wonderful spooktackular night.Â
A formal complaint October 24, 2006
Posted by Staci in : Emotions, General Ramblings, Work Stuff , 3commentsWell I have taken the steps to file a formal complaint w/the office of the omsbudsperson with about my company. My stats and reviews are being impacted due to discrimination against me personally. And when I challenge an error they say I made, that I can prove they are wrong about, nothing is done. But other reps on my team with errors that are in more of a gray area are overturned in a matter of days. I still have one that has been under review since 06/06 which cost me my payout.Â
A Quote that sums up my mood. October 13, 2006
Posted by Staci in : Emotions , 3commentsWhy can’t we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn’t work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos. ~Charles M. Schulz
